This article from The Creative Independent really struck a chord with me, particularly this bit:
You have more time than you think. Seriously. For someone who has never had a singular vision of what I should be doing with my life, accepting this was a big step towards putting goals in perspective and accepting that my curiosity for music, writing, and education could all be explored. Renowned rock climber, musician, poet, and writer Pat Ament describes just this in his 2017 Aquarium Drunkard interview:
“It’s like love. There is no end to the amount of love one can have. You can love multiple people at the same time, your mother and father, your friends, your girlfriend—but it’s the same with our pursuits. There is more than enough time in life to do more than one thing,” he says.
Over the past year, I've been switching lanes so often, it feels like I've spent most of my time in-between them.
After a while, it made a lot of the projects I wanted to work on, a lot of the new skills I wanted to learn, or even future careers I wanted to explore seem like pointless exercises.
Keeping room in my heart for my varied pursuits has helped me understand that I'm not fruitlessly spinning in place, but rather, I'm growing.